Athena's space

 

But I love you,

 

 

Erase the days.

 

 

Come back to me...

 

I've been hanging around, all the days seem so long, the only one I think about, think about,just  think about... all night I just think about you.

 

I don't give a damn about my whole world- has come undone since you left. I can't go on and on.

 

Babe, we can work it out, erase the days, let's make it right?

 

I never meant to hurt you, I try to forget myself causing you pain. Since I lost you my heads been spinning around and around.

 

So many nights I toss and turn, tell me it's not too late.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

12th January 2009- cloudy skies.

 

I woke up with another bad dream today. A good thing about bad dreams is that it allows you the opportunity to wake up early- it allows you to see the sunrise that greets you.

 

To be waken by a dream allows you the opportunity to think about the current situations around your life. Today I decided not to dwell on the situations around me, but instead to dwell on the world that we live in today.

 

I was thinking about who my favourite person would be this year. It's *drumrolls*

 

Condoleezza Rice- I really admire a woman in front line politics, it shows you that if you have ambitions you will reach far in life. Damn, I really want to meet her!

 

You know those situations where it leads you to wonder 'what should I do?' Well, today I have made up my mind, even though I have ambitions of making something happen, as much as I want to, I don't think I will make it happen. I think that sometimes in life, if you have an ambition- you should consider it thoroughly, I've been given a year to think about this ambition and I decided that if I do carry it on, I will end up being hurt. Ambition certainly hurts sometimes as Condoleezza Rice could probably tell you.

 

Have you ever had an injection? You don't know if that particular one will be painful or not, once you had it done- it could be fine, or it could hurt a little bit for a short time, or it could hurt a lot. I thought that  injections that hurt a little bit for a short time is better. It allows you to experience the feeling of having injections and it builds you stronger for the next one- if there is another injection.

 

Have I ever told you I like the feeling of blood being drawn? It's so cool!

 

 

 

 

 

After falling asleep, I had a dream.

 

I was surprised and asked, "gosh! how are you? I haven't see you in such a long time, did you enjoy yourself in Hong Kong?"

 

He greeted me with a mere and cool "Hello Athena, how are you?"

 

I asked him "Do you remember some of the things we went through?"

 

He frantically answered, "no who are you? I don't even know your name..."

 

I then ran out and screamed as loud as I could.

 

The scream that was coming out of me was both made up of anger and comfort. 

 

If I had a day to be able to see you say, "Who are you?" or "Hello Athena," I would be so grateful.

 

I still remember that time when you told me you were coming out of Thai Sq as the sun was rising. It's a great memory I hold of you. I wish you could recover.

 

 

 

 

Under a grey and cloudy sky
Is filled with all kinds of desires today
But I don't lose sight of the light amongst them
I can walk, looking forward
Because you told me of a night when you thought of me
That there remains a purity even in a corner of this city

 

I imagine looking at you breathing calmly
You fast asleep looking so exhausted
The sweet, unprotected you
That no one in the world knows apart from a few

 

One day when the sunlight poured and the wind blew gently
As if it were a normal day
I felt that something was changing in me
Slowly, firmly and surely

 

Though I wasn't sad at all, tears fell down
Because your feelings sank painfully into
The scar in the depth of somewhere peaceful
And changed it into tenderness

 

If you come across deep sorrow
I wish you will share it with me
I'll be able to do anything for the smile
My precious treasure